Where are you, J?

Been wondering why I haven't posted for a while? Well.. That is because I created a new blog, and couldn't make myself delete this one. So for more Jennyblogging:
http://itsnothingbuteverything.blogspot.com/

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$22.00. forever21 (couldn't find the pic. of the exact ones I bought, and was too lazy to take a pic, so this is whatchu get.. they look awesomer though..!)

$19.80. forever21

..more to come. gonna watch harry potter now, :) deuces!

How could I forget..

2 hour delay this morning, so now I'm sitting.. and waiting to go to school - might as well fb and youtube right? so anyways.. K sent me a message on the 1st of November telling me that my cousin just gave birth to (shoot.. i forgot her name) anyways. I'm so excited to see pictures of her! Will probably buy babyclothes to her from here, cuz there's so much cute baby stuff here. And thanks for posting that shirt on ur blog Karina, now I really need to go shopping :( I've been pretty good at that actually, haven't bought clothes since.. more than a month ago I think. I'm so proud of myself :)

Watched 90210 this morning, and I've missed it so much! I can't keep up with Gossip Girl, so I'll just wait and watch that when I get back to DK. VD too.. and Nikita.. and OTH.. and Smallville.. and.. whatever.. the list goes on :P

Now the big question for all the danish people.. "JENNY.. Have you gained weight yet?" - Yes I have. When I came over here I was 97 pounds - now I'm 102. The myth is not a myth.. IT'S TRUE. YOU GAIN WEIGHT WHEN U GO TO THE STATES.. JK!.. (Not really) If you don't get tempted by all the food over here, you'll be okay :)

..Karina I miss u, and I want you to be here and shop with me! GRR!
Deuces! (K? you remember when I always did that deuces thing, and it got kinda annoying? well.. you better miss it now! :D)

I found me.

Living life to learn how to live it. Learn.. Live.. Everyday.
When you're getting tired of something, let go.. and come back - just to find out that you love it even more than before. Me, being away from my family.. made me stronger and wiser. Grateful for the people who gave me this opportunity - I promise to make you proud.

Mom, dad, sis, brother.. best friend. No words to describe how lucky I feel to have you in my life.

My hostfamily.. Thanks for welcoming me with open arms, for your support - you might not know it, but you teach me something everyday.

I am a quiet girl. Not because I'm shy.. but because I wanna learn.. to be better.

.. Now let me cry.. out of happiness, because life is beautiful.

Colts Colts Colts!

And why is my blogtitle Colts? Because, baby.. Today I finally understood how american football works, and I'm so proud of myself. Haha! Halloween is coming up, and I still haven't found a costume yet. I guess I should keep praying. So what have I been doing this weekend.. Friday I talked to my family in Denmark, and it's so weird how I miss those things I used to hate. Especially my dad talking in Danish. HAHA.. makes my day. I hung out with Lexy, Lissa, Greysie and Kitty after school, and then Sethy Bear. We then went to our house (Me, Lexy and Lina) and watched Remember the titans. My favorite movie - which we didn't finish! :( Went to sleep at 3 am and woke up at 7 am to see a volleyball tournament. Hamilton got 2nd place. Only went there because of my beautiful sister Autie. She's an 6th grader and was offered to play for the 7th graders. So proud of her :)
Later that day (saturday) we went to uncle Bobby and Deb's house to celebrate Grandma Vera's birthday. It was really nice. My first time ever to go on a hayride :D Being with the family was just awesome. Too lazy to exlain it, but if ur lucky - u can read it in my diary. But ur not, so that means.. only Karina :D Today we went to B Dubs (took me about 5 minutes to understand why it's called B dubs, way to go jenny >.<) and watched the Colts-Kansas city game. Pretty much my whole weekend. I forgot my camera and all my stuff in my locker at school, so I guess no pictures this time.

Deuces.
(til danskerne der laeser dette - vejret var solrigt... 30 grader mere praecist. Haaber i er misundelige. haha)

..I'm alive

Hey Karina, just read your blog. You almost made me cry.. I love you so much, and I know I haven't had time to be there for you, it's a bad reason, but I know you understand. I've learned so much while being here, and I wish you were here to see all the things I see.
When you're feeling down, look at the world - and you will see that the world is beautiful, and that's enough for you to continue fighting. The beauty of life can't be bought by money, and that's what all of us have been giving. It's hard to explain, you just have to realize it. I've heard two sayings - both makes sense - but completely opposite of each other. "Live life as if you'll die today" and "Don't rush through life, notice the small things" or something like that. Are we supposed to do as much as we can in life, or stop for a second and take a look at what we have and appreciate it? I don't know. I like to just take one step at a time and enjoy my life. Right now, is what matters the most.

(One random foggy morning.)

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Okay - So I just made up my mind that I'm not gonna post all the pictures I've taken up until now. I really don't have time to do that, so if you wanna see them. Then you have to find me and see them on my laptop :P I will try to blog every 2nd day, and tell you what I've been up to. And If I have pics, I'll upload them. Starting a new, everything else makes me stressy. Goodnight.

More pictures of my weekend in Chicago

As u know.. I love Victoria's Secret.. and what I love even more..? CHICAGO!
This is some of the stuff I bought while I was there:



Two books written by Lauren Conrad (cuz i love her!) and undies from Victoria's Secret. I also bought a gift for my dad in DK and more underwear. Won't upload pics of that, because.. well the gift is obvious, and by more underwear.. I mean.. Yeah whatever. Moving on to something else.. JP said Hi btw... ! He's a good friend of mine :)

While we were there we also saw the show: Cirque Shanghai, Something... And it was so cool! Like.. I wasn't not-excited for a sec!

I LOVE CHICAGO.. x1000! I'm tired now. So sorry. I will come back with more pictures.

My life in the states

Sup...

I have this folder with lots of pictures, so I'm just gonna write a bunch of stuff, and add as many pictures I can. In a random order or whatever you call it. Don't judge me and my sucky english, I've only been here for a month. I better get started, cuz this is going to take a looong time, and it's almost midnight, and i'm freaking tired. I got up at 8 this morning and I've been walking around in Chicago with my family until now. Or well.. I just got home about 30 min. ago I think. Okay, enough of my whining.. (FYI. MY LEGS HURT! AND MY THROAT TOO!)

So.. My family has 3 cats. Lennox, DiNozzo and Oscar. (Lennox my favorite, Oscar the special one, DiNozzo... I would call him.. hmm.. A.. Cute orange-coloured.. Cat?.. whatever..) Some days ago, Lennox and I had a photoshoot thing. Or not really.. I was just following him, taking pictures of him and stuff. He's the grey cat on the picture. Looove him. So charming.. Oh and I'm having Photography-class at school now, so I will also upload my assignments here and my grades and stuff. (If I'm not too lazy.. I will try!)

I recently just finished my first art assignment, and I have two pictures of how it looked like in the beginning. I will post the finished work someday in the future. Right now I'm working on a mask in art.. It's a boring assignment, but I have to do it. In photography I have to take 6 close-up pictures, which will be posted on my blog too. Btw. This might be useless information, but the artassignment of the flower, is called a Mola.

School is getting easier now. Like.. In the beginning it was pretty boring, cuz I didn't know anyone at the school except my sister and her friends and was just getting used to the language. It didn't make it better that I didn't like my schedule. It's pretty awesome now. I already told you about that.. I think.. So the reason why school is getting easier? Because people is now realizing that I'm an awesoooome person, and that I am naturally nice. Cocky, no. Honest, Yes.

I really don't have a lot of friends at school, and it is probably because I'm so quiet.

Friends of mine kno that. I don't need a lot of friends. A few good friends are much better. Just like me, when I'm out shopping. Don't buy a lot of cheap stuff ur never gonna use, go for the stuff you like - and give everything you got. Does it make sense? Probably not. I'm just saying.. I have the friends I want, and I'm not in need of more (unless I find someone rly cool) - though I'm on a gayfriend-hunt, so if ur gay, and u think I'm cool, we should totally ..do something sometime. Wink wink.

Talking about clothes. I haven't done a lot of shopping, but it'll come. I promised to post my clothes on my blog, so.. I'll do that now. Btw sis, if ur reading this, tell dad I bought him a gift today, and that I spent some money in Chicago, even though I promised myself not to use money for a while, but u know that I couldn't go to Chicago without spending. Once in a lifetime right? :P

Abercrombie & Fitch, $40-50 (Don't know the exact price)

Hollister, $29,50

Hollister, $35 (do you know the feeling of buying something rly cool for no money? well.. this coat was rly cheap and I rly liked it.. but then after two days I tried it on again.. And it's rly not that cool anymore)... SUCKS

I'm tired.. will be back tmr, for more blogging. Btw. I hate uploading pics! Why does it have to appear on top, so I have to move it down? MEH.. cough.. omg.. hurts.. hurts.. goodnight! PS. I LOVE VICTORIA SECRET!

(So I just realized that I wrote "Will be back tmr.." Guess not. Sorry!)

I just came home from a YFU orientation meeting, it was.. okay. So I don't have time to blog about what I've done these couple of days, cuz I have to upload pics of school and other stuff. Omg I talk too much. Start working jenny! I better upload the pictures of the school first, cuz I always forget to do that. Just an FYI, my school is really small. Like.. We don't even have an american football team at our school :P But it's cool.. I can just get tickets to other High School games. Btw.. If you wanna see pictures of the food I've eaten in the states, you can see 'em on facebook. You're more than welcome to add me as a friend, except if you're a creepy stalker. If that's the case then... EWWW. GO AWAY!

10 minutes later... Okay so I guess I didn't transfer the pictures of the school to this computer, so I guess I'll have to blog about something else. This post is getting too big, making a new one.. Cya in 2 secs!

Chicago, here I come.

It's 7:35 AM, and I just finished eating cereal. It's so quiet, everyone is asleep - oh well.. mom and dad just woke up. Still quiet though, me no like. Anyways.. Mom, Lexy, Auti and I are going to Chicago today for 2 nights! It's going to be awesome. So, fyi, my throat hurts! And it sucks. I've got 2 and half hours of sleep, and surprisingly not tired. It will get back at me later today, meh.. Today I'm getting a phone, yay! which means.. I will have a phone, yay! I miss u karina, and I have some stuff to tell you. Wish u were here, as always. I better get off now, cuz I feel like a geek sitting infronna the computer in the morning. Deuces!

Be patient, my friend.

I know I haven't blogged as much as I should, but I'm kinda busy. I wake up at 5am, go to school. Come home at 5pm, do my homeworks, and sleep at 10 pm. That means I have 4-3 hours to spend time with my hostfamily, friends or whatsoever. I hope you understand. I was going to write a long blogging-page, but I have to get something to eat.. and then sleep.. and then school.. goodnight readers. I am sooo sorry, I will be back soon!

The next time I open my eyes.. School is there, again.

owIt's sunday night, and I really don't feel like blogging. But as my love for my best friend is so big, I have to do it. Poor me. Anyways.. I've been to school 3 days. First day was the worst. Not what I expected, and I hated my locker. Seriously? I could not open it! But I finally learned it (almost) princess jones told me the secret about lockers, so it's not that bad anymore. Anyways.. Did I mention that I do not understand a word in U.S history and American Litt? IT'S AWFUL! meh.. it's not really that bad. I just feel really stupid in those classes. Teehee. And I am really not stupid. Second day was.. Boring.. and Bad.. Third day was.. not that awesome. you know what, forget it. haha I hate school! Except Art.. Dear God, can I stay in Art-class instead of all the other classes? I BEG YOU! So I've been out shopping today, and bought two cardigans, and a gift for my lovely sister. You're gonna love it, I think. I love my cardigans! Omg Karina.. This place is freaking awesome. I will take you here someday, it has the nicest stores evarhhhhh. God, I'm tired, and it's only 10pm.. Get a hold of yourself, Jenny. Yes, I've taken pictures of the food I've eaten, and I will take pictures of the new clothes. Tmr, I will have Princess Jones take pictures of the gym (that I really love) and the lockers at school. That's it for now. I will be back soon with goodies. I love you! Oh btw! I gained weight already :S 0,9 KG. So I'm on diet now.. Will be back with improvements :P (right now: 97 pounds/44,9kg)

DEUCES! (karina.. say deuces!... come on!.. seriouslyyyy.. okay then don't.. omg did I tell you to do it? no???) Okay.. Im tired, indeed. night!

I'm in the states, baby!

Sorry for not updating you guys sooner, but I am just getting used to the time-difference over here now, so.. yeah. Anyways. Weirdly I miss DK very much, but that's probably a standard feeling when leaving your homecountry for a long time. And another thing that is really.. strange.. Is that I am so excited to start school. It's way different over here, than I DK, and the classes are great. Here's my schedule:
1st. Semester (The schoolyear is divided in two semesters.. Yeah I didn't know that neither :P)
1. Algebra 2 (not so great..)
2. Child dev. (something about a child's growth or something)
3. U.S History (Obligated to)
4. 2D Art (AWESOME!!!)
5. Student Service (All I have to do is kinda help whereever help is needed. :D)
6. Choir (AWESOME!!!)
7. American Lit (Obligated to..)
So that's how it looks like.. And it's not the same as in DK. We have the same schedule everyday the whole semester. But it's fine :) Cause the schedule is pretty laid-back-ish.

2nd Semester:
1. Algebra 2
2. Drawing (AWESOME!!!.. I should stop saying that. hahaha)
3. U.S History
4. 3D Art (AWESO.. Yeah okay I'll stop..)
5. Student Service
6. Choir
7. Composition

That's it.. Uhm.. Yeah.. what to say.
Okay about my stay so far. (No swearing.. I'm getting used to it) I was freakin tired when I just arrived in Fort Wayne. Seriously.. I would fall asleep every 5 minutes, and then wake up because I had to stay up until sleep-hour, so I would get used to the timezone here. Anyways.. I would never go through that again if it was my opinion.. Have to do it to get home again, though.. Pewpew. So I'm going to tell you what I've been up to these days, but my memory isn't the best so.. pardon me :)
We visitted Grandma the first day, so I wouldn't fall asleep when doin nothing. And we've been eating out alot.. Oh forgot to tell you that. We eat out a lot over here, but I really like it. It's different but good. I forgot to take my camera with me to take pictures of what I eat the first times, but I will do that from now on. Mwuahaha! .. Okay.. That was random. But yeah.. I like food! I tried Macs and cheese yesterday (is it spelled right?) and it was pretty good.. I think it's kinda like a "instant noodles" thing. Like.. When I'm home in DK and parent's didn't make any food, I would make instant noodles, cause I'm lazy and it's a quick-and-taste-good-thing.. you know what I mean :P? I think mac and cheese is like that too.
Okay.. I'm getting lazy now.. Uhm.. The family here is really great, and they are really nice to me. The language is.. surprisingly hard. But I get most of it. Hostsis and I are going out with two of her friends later, and I think I will go watch some TV with her now, cause this is getting boring. Heehee. Take care whoever is reading this.

Deuces!

Everything is perfect..

Everything is perfect, let's see how long it will last. Combining the circle's ends again..

Respect..

"Respect those who are older than you, those who have higher status than you.." F****** bullshit. I don't respect anyone who doesn't deserve my respect. That goes for everyone! And I mean everyone! I wish everyone would just stop being scared of old traditions..

I was so tired, but now everything seems alright..

I now feel like I can go to the states without looking back and regretting a thing. I am so ready to go. I haven't said goodbye to everyone, but you know.. I will be back in 10 months! I know it sounds like a long time, and it also seemed like a long time in the beginning. I just realised that.. those past couple of years I've lived as if every day was the same old routine. I need to step out of the shadow, and try something new. Something exciting. Something challenging. I feel like I'm trapped in a circle, but it needs to break now. I am so thankful for getting this opportunity. Thanks for believing in me. I believe this will change my life. Hopefully a good change.

So this is so not in the same category, and it's very personal. But I'd like to share it with you, whoever you are. There's one thing I really hate about myself, but I can't help it, it's just who I am. You know the saying

"Before you let go, Remember why you held on, for so long.."

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When a person is/or have been special to me, I am really bad at letting go. That's not a thing to hate, I know. But I really fight for it, until the person gives up and stays by my side. That's the thing I hate, I am being selfish. I don't care if the person ends up being hurt, I just want them to stay beside me. When a person enter my life, and they choose to walk beside me, I can't understand why they would leave me behind. And that's what I fight for. If there is a strong bond between two, and it disappears, it should not make them part. Relationships/friendships should keep on growing, cause no matter what - There was SOMETHING, and that SOMETHING should NOT be thrown away just because some thing that happened. That's how I think, and seriously, I should stop that. I have hurt a lot of people by being selfish, and I am regretful of that. But something inside me says "if you let go now, you will never know if something really good would have happened.". In that case, probability is that the opposite would happen. Oh I'm babbling, it's probably not understandable, but really.. I wish I wouldn't be like that. When people wants to leave me, they should just leave. Because holding on to something that is not wanted from both sides, will just ruin everything.

I am in love with this guy. It's complicated, but right now.. No one else feels right for me. I'm bad at straight out answers, I'm scared that I will hurt someone. Don't fall for me. It will only cause you pain.

He likes me.
He cherishes me.
He wants me.
He touches me.
He follows me.
He cares for me.
He is there for me.
He is sacrificing for me.
He lives for me.
He loves me.

..But that is not enough, because he is not you.

Was today just a taste of what is going to happen?

Not in the mood, but I better get used to it. The blogging-part I mean.
Went out with my parents to buy me a suitcase and a new handbag (I freaking love the handbag, btw) and yes.. I'm already packing some of my stuff to take with me to the states. My oh my, I'm so exciiiiited!
Also bought something for my mighty sheep, and you better like it, or I'll buy you a pig next time. MDRx2 .. adore you! ^^

Tomorrow my bestfriend is going to Belgium. Sadly I couldn't come with her, so that means I'll be gone when she comes back, and I had to say goodbye to her today. I was not sad or anything at first, but when the last 10 min. sneaked up on us, I was crying like a baby, and believe me.. I NEVER cry unless it's something really meaningful. I used to call her my cousin, my friend. Deep inside I know that she's my best friend, and I can't live without her. K, this is for you. Everything we've been through, makes us stronger than others. With my eyes filled with tears, I am sincerely writing this. I love you. Don't know what I should do without you. I don't have to write pages about it. Just look at you're bracelet, and you will know. Take care of yourself when I'm not here, and keep fighting! You're stronger than you think. I believe in you. I will be here for you, always. My stay in the states will not only make me stronger, but our friendship will also grow. It already has. I will miss you like hell, but we will always be thu ha, ha thu, aight?
Hold your head up high, my bestfriend.

9 days till I'm leaving.. What about when there's only 1 day left?

(about half an hour later I start to cry again..)
Karina.. You always had my back. You were always there. I am so thankful for that.. Urg.. This is harder than I thought.. Hope you're going to handle it better, cause I'm such a crybaby right now. Must stop this >.<...

One lazy day.. again..

I finished the serie "Vampire Diaries" with my cousin K, and seriously, we were watching it the hardcore way, so it didn't really surprise me that we were all dizzy and stuff. It was totally worth it though - except now I am feeling the hunger... and I really can't wait to.. season 2! :( anyways.. after spending 8 hours watching VD episodes I was heading home. While sitting in the bus with headphones on I saw this guy running outside. I had seen him before, and I could see that he was struggling.. and not with the running-part. Suddenly I felt really bad even though I didn't know him personally. When you see someone different, do you judge them? Some people do. And those should not have the right to judge without knowing.

Bye for now..
Oh and btw. I don't like you. You remind me of a heartless vampire. Manipulating - and ruining everything. When time comes, everyone will be gone - and you will end up lonely and even more pathetic.

8 days away from home..

Hello blog-reader! I just got home some hours ago, so I guess I should write something about my super chillaxing week. (While listening to Claude - Gataway > Pretty Catchy song!)

I started off by going to an interview in Copenhagen. (totally necessary when obtaining a visa.. urg -.-!) So I sat in the train for 3 hours while reading the Passport Handbook-thing I got from YFU. Interesting, but pretty tiring. I guess waking up at 5:45 AM with only 1 hour of sleep was hard on me, but totally worth it! I haven't got the opportunity to go to CPH alone before, so it was really nice. I met my unni PM for the first time, and we had a nice time together. Amazing how good our talks were - considering that it was our first time meeting each other. After hanging out with my awesome unni, I went to a reception at the ambassador's residence, and I really enjoyed trying that. It wasn't overdo'ed, but it sure was fancy. Waiters with tiny-food on silver plates. Guests with expensive clothes and accesories.. (eyes like a falcon! or not..) It was a nice experience, and I would have stayed there longer, but my feet were in pain, so I had to leave early.

Then I was off to Odense, to visit my sister and her family. I had a nice time there, and I'm going to miss them. I could write about all the stuff I did while in Odense, but I'm honesly too lazy. Perhaps I'll do that later.

Me and my nephew <<<<<

Oh.. actually I was out with my two sisters, my nephew and niece the day before i left, and I saw this place a person once showed me, and a strange feeling hit me. Indesribable, but definitely a feeling. Faded memories from that place suddenly were to be remembered.

Enough about my week.. This is my first time sewing, but I'd like to show you my amateur work though. It's a skirt I made just before the summer holiday (with help from a nice teacher at school), and I got the inspiration from Blair Waldorf's school-outfit from Gossip Girl. Who knows.. Maybe I will spend more time on practising my sewing, and upload some more. I have to buy a sewing machine first though..

Not the best quality, I know, but that's it for now. Take care!

Today I remembered the forgotten..

010710 – Today I remembered the forgotten..
Furnitures were moved around. While cleaning my room I saw the bag. The bag, which I had put in the back of the backest, until now. Old christmas, birthday and everything else-letters were in it. The last letter to be read was the one from my former best friend, B. All the memories were written down on a piece of paper. I finished reading it, and that was the moment I realised that during good and bad times, I used to be happy. But when the dose of bad times eats up the good times, it may leave you unhappy. Just like me. But trust me, friend. It will change.
Tomorrow morning at 05:45 I will be leaving this place, on a strongly needed vacation. Well.. After I’ve been in Copenhagen for an interview to receive a visa, meeting my unni pm, and a reception at the ambassador’s residence. Really looking forward to this week. Deuces!
Rihanna featuring Eminem – I love the way you lie. (Thanking my friend K, for showing me this song. It’s awesome)